Rose Idariza

2011-07-04T11:49:00.000-07:00

ive moved to www.roseidariza.wordpress.com

and ive my own online shop . add me @ facebook . PUTRI CLOSETS . (:

2010-08-07T23:36:00.000-07:00

My throat congested with phlegm these days. I hate the itchiness ! Hmpf.
Anyway yesterday was one of the days i must remember. :)
Spent time with fir on our monthsary night. It sucks that he's good in games. He always wins. Hmmm, suke la tu.
And recently we caught two movies. The lastairbender3d & tekken.
Seriously i love the last airbender ! Hehe. I wish i have his powers too.
And tekken. Jon foo is so hot. Hes fit to be Jin. I admire his moves.
I miss my fir so much. Meeting him later :)

2010-07-27T21:04:00.000-07:00

2010-07-11T08:43:00.000-07:00

2010-07-06T21:28:00.000-07:00

Today i did not go to school.
im damn tired. hybernated on bed for like 14 hours straight.
hahahaha. now im having a bad headache. too much sleep is not good for u too.
and guess what, bf just called to wish our special day. hehe. i love him so much.
i hope he's safe and sound at tekong. even my mum's very worried for him. goodness !

2010-07-06T06:04:00.000-07:00

the recording session was a success. did a cover song. (christina.a - beautiful) now awaiting for my producer to master and publish it online.
planned wide on doing a next cover song. maybe the song PYRAMID by charice ! Cos im so ter-sangkut on this song. heee ((:

and DO check out the next shining star CHRISTINA GRIMMIE 17 yr old girl 1st music video. Shes fucking famous on youtube. Senang je. Type out her name and her vids will emerge. Her voice i rate it 5/5. To me, shes way better than rihanna, demi lovato or anybody. Serious.

Anyway. School is fun. Assignments a bore. Today is my bf's first day in Tekong. Im feeling so sooo empty right now. :( tmrw is our special day. but we actually met for 30mins at pasir ris before he sets off. I miss him so much !

2010-07-02T21:18:00.000-07:00

im so damn sleepy right now. those oozy feeling somehow gets the best of me. only fir , my mum and God knows why. i hate it when these things happened. i need to force myself to stay wide awake and relive.

won't be seeing bf today and the whole five days next week. will be missing him so much :(
today im going for a recording session at producer's house. gonna suffer a whole lot. wish me the best.

2010-06-29T23:40:00.000-07:00

Can't believe the two person i know, left this sinful world on the same sunday. Both drowned.
Ridzuan Jumali, 18.
Notable.
Talented morning singer.
Our production pages are always flooded by his positive comments.
Well , he's on new paper last sunday. He ignored pleas not to swim. Drowns after he tries to swim to islet at sentosa.

The other guy i know is by the name of Muhd Asrul. A childhood friend of Ahmad. Falls into S'pore River after sleeping off a night of boozing and watching World Cup. I hope this incident will be a lesson learnt for Ahmad. He's getting old sia. He's 26 fucking years old. He shouldn't be out there EVERY NIGHT at Clark Quay drinking. Taking a jap. or got high on those blackmarket cough syrups. He should be earning hard for a living. OR finding someone to settle down with. He should be done with the life being behind bars. And repent. Before its too late like his friend.
i hope he will stop wasting his time on it from now on. And quit his job as a tattoo artist. lets hope hard he will open his eyes.

Anyway, I MISS FIRDAUS !!

2010-06-27T01:39:00.000-07:00

truckloads of things occurred between me & bf recently.

oh yes. he tagged along to my cousin's chalet.

over there , we went to cycle and watched the pretty sunset together.((:

played soccer and we ate a tonne of savouries.

and for the past few days, i went to clean his entire crib. squeaky clean now. i kinda pitied his mum for working so hard to support 5 boys on her own. every single day bf meet me up after his super tiring daytime in camp. i don't force and it's his will. he's fucking sweet.

he even wrote a long love letter in my diary. with his picture on it. (:

he designed the whole cover page too ! seriously cute sia. ahhh daymmmm. i love him la !

now i just have to be extremely patient with his ex. and get used to his mum. it's kinda awkward that me, smoking together with his mum and him. goodness. a very...open minded mum !

2010-06-17T21:00:00.000-07:00

yesterday bf met my parents. got interviewed from 1100pm to 230am. haha. was embarassing. mum showed bf my childhood photo with curly fries hair. and the one i slept on the bus reaching terengganu last year. SUPER UGLY SIA. urgh !
he likes my parents though. he took cab home. and today he's having this ns outing at fort canning park.

2010-06-14T22:05:00.000-07:00

im so tired i slept 12 hours straight today. yest spent the whole day together wit bf. sanggup sia dia ambik mc from sgh to be excused from camp. haha. thanks for the movie treat, restaurants and many more. i hope u like the adidas watch i gave u. now we have similar watches. hehehe.

2010-06-12T19:28:00.000-07:00

(our most ugliest random shots. sorry)

yesterday was a day for me and bf to remember.

we went to shop at ion together.

bf is so sweet. he insisted on buying me clothes. with his brutal words. haha.

in the end, i got myself just a mango tee and uniqlo hoodie.

i dont want him to spend so much money on me.

as for him, boxers and 1 tee from uniqlo. 4 shirts at topman. happy la tu. hahaha.

moreover dgn matching earrings dia. chis.

i wonder what should i get for him in return. mmmmmm. and yeah to those who doesnt know, ive officially changed to a new number. so pls take note k.

2010-06-10T07:08:00.000-07:00

ive so called ditched my blog for quite sometime. im so shag to update. no time man.

now i have my mini laptop, iphone, firdaus to keep me contented. (:

see that guy above ? that's firdaus i'm talking about.
he's in army now. and he always have time for me despite his tight schedule. i love his random calls just to sing to me.(: sent me right to my doorstep so that im safe. see stars together.
he kept my photos and i kept his. whats mine is mine. and whats his is mine.((:

im sleepy now. i will update tmrw morning to continue k.

2010-04-26T05:06:00.000-07:00

I HATE MY NEW TIMETABLE FOR TUES & THURS!

2010-04-24T08:56:00.000-07:00

WEEHEE ! Im halfway recovering from my dissapointing asthma & fever. Imagine hitting the point of 39.5 degrees. It's something i dont want to recall much. Anyway im back to school this coming Monday. :D Hehehehe. I miss Nasi Ayam Sambal & Mushroom Sp !

Sometimes. I feel stupid for playing back those songs which makes me remind myself of the past down at Woodlands. I should be moving on. Looking forward. And never turn back. Well, no matter what, memories stays huh.

2010-04-11T02:23:00.000-07:00

just when i was about to reach the top with felicity, snap! now im at the bottom again. feeling at my worst. stressing about money. i hate saman. like who loves it right? Moreover with dad trashing more books ontop of me. Me, trying to balance the whole pile of books. One more book, im gonna trip and fall. My dad took a whole 2 months leave. He finished off most of our savings on ciggies , and we have to feed ourselves instant noodles almost everyday. I didnt dare to tell this off to my friends. I dont want anybody's sympathy or stash. Let me suffer this alone.
Once my dad is done with his 2 months leave, im happy again. and after 6 months, he will be promoted and will be offered to work overseas. Either dubai or oman. I'm fucking excited on this part. Cause he's bringing me , my mum , my brother along ! Staying there for atleast 3 months. Cool or what !

2010-04-03T21:45:00.000-07:00

Dayymmm ! Something is ultra wrong with my ite portal siaaaaaaa. T-T

I can't seem to reveal my results. It doesnt work still after so many attempts.

I really have to figure out something soluble.

Anyway i watch a movie badly !!!! :(

2010-03-30T20:52:00.000-07:00

Finally done wit my 2nd song :D " Don't come to me " But personally i think it wasnt well done. Just my voicals. Huhu. Other than that, it's fine. Will be posted by Phathell in FB soon. :B

Anyway i miss him.
I miss rushie wooshie sushie.
I miss encik ahmad(;
my fuckers from ite.
and bitches from workplace.

weeeheeee

i'm gonna be drop dead busy today. heading out jalan jalan wit the woodlanders.

2010-03-22T21:18:00.001-07:00

To be honest , i am in my worst mood. But i dont wanna evoke it to myself. Chillek. :]
Im going to bisect my freetime today into two. Meet up with heen to escalate on our two new songs. And hang around with Rushie bestie , aphat , loco . Theyre somesort my happy pills . Atleast sejuk jugak hati aku hari nie :) Huhu . These week i'll be pretty busy in terms of hanging out. Tuesday, wednesday, saturday, sunday dah confirm busy to the max. Tha other free time goes to work. Fooooooooooh. Busy busy.

And somehow unexpected people contacted me back after so long . Kiddo ( Zulhilmi ) whose in ns right now contacted me back . We treated each other like brother sister now . He smsed me yesterday just to tell me he watched soccer wdl vs home united and they drawed . Then MUS contacted me back ! My all time favourite dearest friend . He smsed just to tell me he's botak now. Haha , random seh ! He cut botak because of work ? Err . @.@

i gtg , need to get ready :D

2010-03-22T00:43:00.000-07:00

As expected, a mundane monday. @.@ !
Feeling ultra restless. Chill chill apple the whole day.
Eat sleep tv computer.
Brainstormed on my catchy lyrics.
Moreover with the never ending rain out there. It's something impropable during March. So i rather be somewhere indoors.

Anyway , bf's msg is daymmmm agonizing. Im so sad. I dont wanna brag much. :[ I don't know what did i do to be treated like this. I swear i never hurt you before. But you always did. Am i not special to you at all ? I wonder so much :(.

2010-03-18T19:22:00.000-07:00

its Been awhile since i updated. Both my laptop & desktop needs to consult a doctor. Now I'm struggling, shaking, shivering with every alphabet to click. keyboard errors.

anyway I've published my 1st new song titled 'what about me' :]. download able at 4shared. up next I'm joining forces with heen elfenzo. hehehe. working on two songs titled 'don't come to me' & 'cinta tidak kesampaian'. thanks to 245productions for the beat. :D god bless u.

2010-03-07T18:12:00.000-08:00

Rebonded my hair. =D
never ever gonna perm it.
i rather its silky straight.
most girls out there looks ugly with curly hair. no offence :]

2010-03-04T22:50:00.000-08:00

I'm done with my lyrics.
PS. Got nothing to do with anybody.
So here it goes. With simple english.

I SACRIFISED MY SLEEP TO BE YOUR STARRY NIGHT,
I WALKED MILES JUST TO SEE IF YOU'RE ALRIGHT,

I HEARD ALL YOUR FEARS,
YOUR SECRETS N YOUR DREAMS,
I WOULD LISTEN WHEN YOU BREAK IN TEARS.

I COUNTED EVERY TEAR YOU CRIED,
JUST TO MAKE SURE ITS NOT AS MUCH AS YOUR SMILE I LIKED,

WHY IT'S ALL BOUT YOU,
NOTHING BOUT ME,
WHY I GOT THE PAIN,
N YOU LEFT ME WITH ALL THE BLAME!

CHORUS/

FORGET ABOUT THOSE DAYS,
FORGET ABOUT THOSE NIGHTS,
FORGET THAT WE WERE ONCE SO RIGHT.

DONT WANNA HEAR YOUR VOICE,
DONT WANNA SEE YOU,
DONT WANNA DO ANYTHING GOT TO DO WITH YOU.

so how is it :D :) ? Hahaha ! It's been a long time since i wrote a proper one. Just a short draft or two eversince im bombed with school assignments.

Anyway. School's a bore. Did a bundle of revision papers. Exam's next week. Daym, I'm shaking. Hahahahaha. I need to bloody revise on bearings ! Not those maths topic on bearings. But those ball bearings, roller bearings, bush bearings. Tsk tsk. I know nothing about it. ~.~
I'm spending my whole night today at Pasir ris till 7am tmrw. So i'll blog when i'm free.

2010-03-02T05:13:00.001-08:00

Can someone relay to Fairouzs that i love him so :) ? Hehe. Random seh.
Anyway. Malique nigga just produced a beat for me today. My mind got bombed since yesterday night. Creating an almost perfect lyric. It's almost done. Wait till im done i'll publish it kae ?
Tmrw my Section head organised a team bonding event at ALOHA CHALET. To go or not to go ? THATS THE QUESTION !

2010-02-27T08:18:00.000-08:00

Was expecting a mundane night.
But things dont always turn out the way we expected right.
So im not suprised. :) Hehe.

Cancelled my meet with Fairouzs.
And my meet with Vanessa Adrianne Nunis.
I roused from my seat and rushed excitedly to Scape at Youth Park to meet Bffs.
Since Tampines is almost an accessible place to go anywhere in the North.

The atmosphere and the crowds down there ROMP SIOL !!
Haha. Seriously.
And Sheikh Haikel Junior is so adorable !
Of course this little boy raps well.
Tengok lah bapak dier siapahhh kan. Hahaha.
Met up with Khai aphat , Amirul , Hariz , Heen elfenzo and Loco.
Khai seemed melancholic and disturbed by the crowds.
Oh yes , I'm so sorry i didnt make it on time to witness your performance.
The rest of bekas TIP was there too.
Had a short chat with my favourite Shidy and Loco.
And we went seperate ways.

Ate at KFC. Finished off Hariz's cheese fries.
Logged on to Facebook through Heen's Iphone.
Got my hands on my baby psp all the way home.
Got myself into another realm. Where only Naruto Shippuden character exists. Hahahaha.
Fought halfway through the tower.
And here i am ! Haha.
Back to earth , I wanna sleep. Nite earthlings.

2010-02-25T08:41:00.000-08:00

i had some lovable moments with rushie & loco.
but to some dissapointment. we bumped into hyder.
when he got engrossed into a conversation with rushie, loco and i were practically bitching about him by bluetoothing msg.
poor rushie can't help wondering what got into our sleeves. ish ish. haha.

then we bumped into hidayah and zul.
hugged them tight.
seriously. looking at them. i just miss those old days.
back in those times in a food chain restaurant named pizzahut.
i remembered i was sending a toasted garlic bread to this customer ,
then tiber tiber i slipped and the garlic bread flewed all the way to the east
macam bukit batok ke pasir ris and hit the wall ! haha !
selenger nak mampos seh !! urgh.
anyway. im happy working in 7eleven now. :)
goodnight.

2010-02-24T16:48:00.000-08:00

you know what bothers me most ? ORANG BERBUAL WORLD. That's sadistic in a way. You are pulling a person's leg in a convincing manner. But ask yourself this. Whats the outcome. Isn't it a relieve to just say the truth.
Common, tak semua org bodoh nak mampos untuk percaya kau okay. Nak world tgk org. Jgn end up malu.
Theres this one guy got i and my music buddies extremely bothered. He claimed he's a Eurasian. What the fuck. Pandai seh dia buat kelakar. Hahaha ! He looks malay. Has a malay name. And his i/c clearly stated that his race is a malay. Race and religion is two different thing okay. And what's wrong being a malay anyway? Wahh , kononnya kalau kau eurasian , kita akan sembah kau, jilat kaki kau ? He even got the guts to actually say the parents that is under one roof with him is not his real parents. Astarfirullah al hazim. Padahal muka bapak dia mirip dia. Ingat , Tuhan dengar seh. Confirm ni punya anak terus pergi mampos masuk neraka sak ! Konon nya his real "Eurasian dad" hit and run. Hahaha. Oh wait. Just look at his facebook. His current city is at New york. I thought this is Singapore ? I think he's dreaming. He even claimed he djed for a club in Australia when he's 15! Hahahaha !! Fucking shit !! Another big joke to laugh about. Theres another. This NITEC certificate holder is acting like a JC student. Tak sedar diri. He taught me English like I'm stupid. If I'm that stupid, i wouldnt be passing my O levels English. Wanna see my certificate ? Im not world. Unlike him. He can just hisap konek sudah ! Hahahahaha ! Lai. Go ahead and spit at me. I'm so not scared of you.

2010-02-24T02:15:00.000-08:00

and i miss fairouzs so much. :(

2010-02-22T20:30:00.000-08:00

boredom. browsed you tube for videos contented with racist humour and head to toe criticisms. and i remembered about 98.7 fm national rap battle championship.
MUST view it if you've yet to watch. clear your ears. its funny shit !!

2010-02-21T00:50:00.000-08:00

yesterday was awesome! was sheeshaing grape apple with rushie bestie, when asyraf came with his two friend to enlighten the atmosphere. throwed our attention to mission impossible two. so we only snapped two pictures. hahaha. mangkuk. bumped into kai and his girlfriend at haji lane. unexpected. kai's my secondary school mate. staying few blocks away. hopefully his gf didnt get the wrong picture when we waved to each other. :)
met fairouzs after that. he loves looking at the trees. purposely. maybe because his wife stays there. hahahahaha. anyway he's booking in today :'). Pls. Hope he's fine in there.

2010-02-19T22:32:00.000-08:00

fairouzs. he's mine now :)

2010-02-18T14:33:00.000-08:00

Today's a special day cos its my dearest nephew bday :) Riki Safrian. He turns 8 today. Ya i know he looks like chinese. hahaha. Love you riki. :) That's his picture during his P1 days in Admiralty Primary school.

2010-02-17T00:28:00.000-08:00

I couldnt sleep last night. It was hell. Just the thought of it makes me wanna eat my fingers. Brrr ! Seram sak.
Just visualise this scenario.
I went back late last night after lepaking with Rushie baby and Asyraf. I went back home as per normal. I knocked on the door continuously expecting my dad to open up the door. But he didnt. I knocked and slammed my palms on the door for 20 good minutes. Only then he opened up and went back to sleep without a word.
I got myself infront of the computer screen. Macam biasa. Checked facebook and tagged. I was alone in the living roon at that point of time. Which i dont mind ah, cos i'm used to it already. My friend Alfa randomly called. It kind of broke the silence. But then i dont know. I felt scared. I tried to get rid of that feeling. I put down the phone. That's when i suddenly terdengar suara sak ! Wtf. It's a voice of a deep man more like a male animal voice. Dragging so fucking loud from the main door. Arghh seram seh. Then i quickly ran into my room without closing all the switches. I covered my head with pillows. And this time i heard switches being turned off/on repeatedly ! Sumpah aku takut. Iyan accompanied me on the phone. My voice trembled throughout the conversation. 2am i fall asleep. 4am i woke up again. This time i got so scared i woke my parents up. My dad who prayed in the living room heard someone meddling the locks and knocking softly. And i dont know how but somehow i fall back asleep.

I have eyebags now.

2010-02-12T20:40:00.000-08:00

yesterday seriously kekek sak ! I should have taken a video of me and atiqah berbual bahasa KELING. hahaha. :) anyway, met her at cityhall. Well it's been ages since i stepped my lazy fore foot there. So it feels so welcomed when im back to that place. Went to esplanade. Then dinnered at Marina Square. Walked back and forth from cityhall to esplanade. Giler giler. Haha. Felt extremely wasted ! It's about this one particular guy in green we missed out. Argh ! padan muker kita. Shall enclose the details. Dont wanna talk about it. Pfft.
Today's gonna be boring. Maybe i'm not coming to the 2 days chalet that my cousin organised.
I wanna spend my time with my dearest Riki & Raul :) Oh yes. Riki's birthday is coming up this 19th february.

2010-02-10T02:21:00.000-08:00

Revenge is sweet. But karma's even sweeter. :) you dont have to even move a finger. saw someone from my history book. i hope God punish him for every tear i shed. rainstorm will soon cover you. mark me.

2010-02-09T05:10:00.000-08:00

im very much fatigued of my eyes which are prone to infections. now and then it'll attack me. halfway doing assignments, i had to rush home. argh ! sibeh sak. even CA can't tolerate either. he suggested me an eye specialist. im too scared. in the end my mum bought me eye baths & medications almost every week. now im all nostalgic over getting my hands oil-ed whilst assembling hydraulics cascade ! i want to end this infections ! *white flags in the air*

2010-02-06T20:14:00.000-08:00

Yesterday Afternoon i met up with Vanessa Adrianne Nunis at Tampines. We then filled our tummy at Tamp mart Kopitiam. I felt bad cause i finished off her beef kway teow. Hehehee ! we met up with her bf's sister Tasha. Scanned through the pictures of Chris at his bunk, Saddam Hussein's badges and those delicious looking meals provided daily. Her bf is now officially serving as a Commando for 2 years ! Baik kan ! The 2 weeks confinement is off due to CNY next weekend.

At dusk , i finally met my BFF Rushie :). Headed to Mosi Cafe to sheesha strawberry. Talked about ghosts & final destination 3 that aired on channel 5 at that point of time. Serious shitz the place was BLAZING HOT siak ! Cause there are so many budak budak in the same room as us. And somehow i felt extremely wasted ! Argh. It's about the guy that's sitting next to me. My hands trembled almost the whole time. I don't wish to tell why. His silence just filled the atmosphere. And the way he spoke out the word '' sorry ''' made me wanna to eat my fingers ! Well i shouldn't remorse about it now.

Now i wanna prepare my school stuff.

2010-02-04T03:28:00.000-08:00

i'm showering myself with smiles today. :D maybe because , Othman didnt turn up. HAHAHAHAHA. WOOOOOOOOO.
no offense. he hates me ........ this much. i hate him ........................................................ this much. he thinks im the termagant sort. he complained what a big fucking liar i am to my dad yesterday. well thats what he thinks. no point of me being defensive. malas sak.

anywae im seriously tired. cancelled my meet with farhan and the rest. im sorry guys. keep in touch. :) love love.

2010-02-02T05:47:00.000-08:00

im lost. argh ! i can't even explain the cause for this negative demeanour of mine. there's too many problem collected in my mind. i don't even know where to start.
i'm extremely sad. let's not talk about it.

anywae , im late for school today. midah too. hahahaha. jiwer eh. we met at 10.30am and broke up when she left for s&w. in between, i saw mus. i felt damn awkward. we acted like strangers. moreover his mum called me just the other night ! aduh seram siol. she shouted asking mus whereabouts. lol. like as if i kidnapped him ! haha. giler giler. explained from head to toe and she apologised :)

then i went to meet up with vanessa adrianne nunis. bitched about the passerbys. hehe. then i met up with agnes. we went to eat at banquet. bought my all time favourite, peach with nata de coco. im also with my two other friends rafi & khai. and we dropped by tampines regional library. borrowed books. now im left with only one book to bury myself in !

2010-01-31T21:25:00.001-08:00

Woohoo ! Got myself a new pair of nike air shoe.~~~~ Hahaha. Costed me $109 only ! Hahahahahahaha. Giler giler. No wonder they call it the great Crazy sale. They make ppl go crazy. Hoho. Lucky i didnt buy the Superman Hicut shoes. Isnt worth much. And great discounts from 77th street. Bought a new simple cotton felt jacket. And black khakis. Now I'm sinking in my thoughts on what kind of bag to buy !

2010-01-29T18:08:00.000-08:00

i don't get it , why my life evolves around guys who treat me like TRASH.

i showered you with so much care ,
and all you can give me in return is to throw me aside or intermission. i came all the way just to see you , and you left me behind. why can't you see the little things ive done? im a girl okie. My fragile heart is so so so hurt. i have a huge temper , i dont know why i can be this patient. i'm not expecting anything in return , but i just want to see your sense of appreciativeness.

and there's this few guys that are gone now(you know who you are) , seriously pegi lah kau mampos ! SILAKAN ! aku tak heran pun. kau fikir aku nak merayu , terhegeh nak contact kau. anak anak KONEK. nasib mak kau beranak kan kau berkonek. hah ! anyway , life still goes on.

i wish i can say this to syaiful. i do appreciatte whatever he has done for me. but i just can't love him back. i'm tired of his ATTITUDE whenever we talked. Argh GILER BABI SEH ! we just can't click larh. I don't like to be in a serious relationships anyway , which is only gonna hurt me more in the end ! After my Ex left , hes only giving serious a bad name. I dont know how to be serious to love anymore. We're still young, commitment comes later ok.

So yeah. Btw , Yesterday updates. Evening , Vanessa asked me join in dinner, since im at tampines , i went to rasa 21 to slack with Vanessa & her bf Chris. Sat at the smoking table :) Alif joined in for awhile. And Chris's mat motor friends. We spent our time bitching about ppl. Hehehee. Laite at night , accompanied Midah OTP cos she missed the last bus home and have to walk all the way from jurong to bb ! Then OTP with Aie. Then Khai my bestfrend. 4am , i sleep !

2010-01-26T02:26:00.001-08:00

i demand a new pair of shoes. i'm bored of my other 8 pairs seriously. this time , maybe i choose DC. the ones from this webbie is fuckface coolshit !
http://store.dcshoes.com/family/index.jsp?categoryId=3436167&cp=3448741.3448757

but we will see aite! i might end up with other brands. that's what always happen around the globe. hahahaha. humans and their fickle mindedness. ish.
anyway my sore eyes yet to recover. i'm so sorry khai i couldnt make it on your bday cel today. it got worser after my RP outing. didn't expect to 'bump' into hazel & ridhuan. and umm , hidayat which i never met for many fucked up years. hahahaha. he's mean now. pfft. and yarh , talked to yasser star & his friend itek was there. it's been long since huh. :)

and oh oh i recommended vanessa adrianne nunis into my workplace. of course, she got it. but she got LOST. hahahaha ! well can't blame her. she doesn't live at bb -.- work is a better place now. hehehehehe.

2010-01-25T07:01:00.000-08:00

i ignored school just for work. must be dissapointing in your eyes right?
what can i say. bills are the hindrance. it causes daily restiveness until the day you PAY UP.
and this will go on after you get the next bill. and the next bill.
but i have to blame myself though -.-"

anyway i must not get myself stressed up too much now. Tmrw's khai 19th bday.
after my RP OUTING , im gonna straight meet khai & the rest !

2010-01-20T04:25:00.000-08:00

seriously , if anybody triggers me now , i'm gonna explode.

but what can i say , i can't expect much happiness on this temporary place called Earth...one problem after another....it has been this worst eversince last year.

I'm very much disappointed with myself.

my teacher hates me, despises me.

I feel like i wanna walkout the door now.

I don't mind leaving this course honestly speaking. but hey. i know it's an obligation to study. like it or not....
so fyi ive been enduring so fucking hard!!

and oh, bumped into mus this morning after so long and tegured. i realised how much things have changed. but i tell you he's still the bestest buddy i met so far. he knows my pattern most.

Last..... recently met the t.i.p. ( The insanity posse ) crew. I'm of course happy to meet the main ones, nick shaiful and loco hussein kuai2. Just that, i somehow feel that whatever is happening, it's happening tooo fast. That doesnt seems right to me.

2010-01-13T18:42:00.000-08:00

Didn't pen down my thoughts for quite awhile. Been so busy. Been so stress. And been so sad.
I must watch 142! But when seyh. I neglected school for 3 days now. Dang ! But i promise i'll go tmrw even though tonight i'll be working my ass off @ 7eleven. My health is so distracted. Haish. And Lets hope Nabilah will extend her working hours & take care of this big baby of hers.

2010-01-08T20:22:00.000-08:00

MY HAIR IS JET BLACK NOW ! Hehe.
And im gonna rebond my hair soon enough. Next month.
Mum, Fareena & Mus buddy suggested that i'll look better if i do.
Well unlike perm. Like maggie and makcik. Haha. Unless you have long lengthy hair, looks beautiful if we perm the ends.

Anyway im going out with rushiebaby & family today. bye bye :)

2010-01-08T01:51:00.000-08:00

i like u. and im deeply concerned about u. u noe that, kan?
im neither interested in making friends with other guys nor ur mates.
it's ok if you wanna ignore my feelings. i can see that u do ignore these days.
i'll be just fine k. maybe. :(

2010-01-06T16:56:00.000-08:00

I bet many ppl will be glad when i say this. Ive
started to reply smses very fast :)
Im no longer SLOW @ replying smses due to daydreaming.
Ive quitted daydreaming already. Hehehe.

2010-01-05T04:57:00.000-08:00

I felt so pressured in school today. Fooh~ Seriousshit, Im glad im HOME ! lool.
But, serious serious.
Thanks to my dad, he fetched me & jason from school. We dont have to torture ourselves squeezing inside the mrt. And train rides sure are hypnotic.

2010-01-04T02:36:00.000-08:00

1st day of school is a bore. New Yp faces everywhere.
Got lectured bad from Mr Othman. Pending phase tests. I dont know.
Im just not feeling good today. is it monday blues or is it just me? *sighs*

2010-01-02T23:46:00.000-08:00

Happy belated new year readers. (:

I see that many ppl claimed it's useless to list out new year resolutions. But as for me, Even if in the end we didnt accomplished it. Atleast, we planned psychedelically. ((:
Kan kan ? Hahahaha.

anyway, FUCK. School's tmrw. My mum bought me a decent hairdye just now. Medium golden chestnut brown. Ok lah tu. Shall dye my hair later. Maybe i'm trimming a lil'. I dont know. Shall see ah.

2009-12-30T01:06:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i feel like giving IT up. Or i'll get hurt further. Let this be my best kept secret.

2009-12-29T19:39:00.000-08:00

Everyday ive been hanging out, ive no time for home. It's like an obligation to go out these days. Sibeh , pocket's drying sak. I cant wait to get pampered by daily pocket allowances.
I need to purchase that new pair of lc shoes. And grey crumpler mini slings.

Hrmm. Anyway. My asthma is killing me. I have difficulty breathing at night. Breacol's not working. Damn.

And at the edge of night yest , Mus buddy called. Suprisingly. He's always full of suprises. Haha. He's having his BL meeting today. Reminded me of JAN INTAKE. Fuck it. My distant cousin's entering the same course as me. Urgh. Irritating.
Let's hope 2010 will be a better year in schoolwise too !

2009-12-27T18:40:00.000-08:00

i believe that the true definition of love is when marriage is involved. parenting, hardships, financials, lifetime commitment. i bet its hard to imagine how much my mum will shed her tears if dad leaves this world. everyday she woke up with him beside her. and those times bringing me and my siblings up from birth. the ones we have now is just love. or temporary madness. and we will bring this experience to marriage.

2009-12-24T19:43:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went to play bowling with Mum & Dad. Guess who won? MY DAD. Hahahaha. A beginner dad & an intermediate daughter. Magical isnt it? Guys will be guys huh. They're always CUN GILA at sports , games. Tsk =D
Whereas , My mum was so adorable. She kept aiming the ball at longkang. Haha.
I love my mum and dad. What more can i ask for. They're indeed my everything.

And yeah. I went to my good buddy , Kiddo's house after that. He's Botak Licin already. I looked at his HTA lanyard. Mcm skinny alien. Hahahahaha. And his mum lectured us. Looool ! Saved my sticks. Since kiddo offered his winston sticks. Huahua.

Then ofto meet Reena. My lovely neighbour. Bus-ed home with her & lepak-ed at 290e. (: More plans ahead. Since Ramdhan is working at my place now, gonna work with him. 4th Jan 2010 sch reopen. FUG!

2009-12-21T18:02:00.000-08:00

So many things happened in just few days. And i've a tight schedule this week.
Today and tmrw i'll be in Msia (: And the day after i'll be at East Coast.
I pretty much miss work. And oh , 2 days back when i lepak-ed with Rushie & Aishacino, I MET UP WITH MY OLD OLD BESTIE THAT I LOST CONTACT WITH FOR 3 YEARS ! Holyshit. Ramdhan siaaah ! And i recommended him work of course. At my place. Good idea huh =D. It's also another way to keep in touch with him besides helping in his financials.

Another suprise was made by buddy Mus. Well he didnt online BEFORE. and he did yersterday night. Lol. Is it a miracle or smth? What moved him? Hahahahaha.

And the one in camp i told you about. He finally replied ! Wahlaoweh. I'm glad my worries is finally over. *phew* i'm hoping this won't happen again.

2009-12-18T20:53:00.000-08:00

Ive watched the latest ep 140 of Naruto Shippuden ! Fugg.
I cant wait for 141. Hahaha ! Lincah pls. The moment of truth is about to unveal. Its about Itachi Uchiha. And i seriously salute Madara Uchiha. I find his mask so the cool. Sasuke is hot as usual. Hehehe.

141 141 141 141 141 141 141 !

My buddy Alan shithead is on the way. He's on ep 132 now. Gonna wait for him (:

2009-12-18T20:13:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, i wish SOME memories doesnt stay. It's a pain in the ass dont chu think. My nephews came to stay. And Riki reminded me of my Ex. Please, im begging my mind. Neither i should remorse nor reminisce about it. Im much happier now, im looking ahead =D.
Everyday is full of happy moments ! =D
Doesnt mean he's in a relationship , i have to be too yknow. I'm happy for him. But at the same time im SUPRISED & Laughing hard if he's loyal. Well he never was did he. No point being in a relationship cause he end up betraying. Like what he did to me. And the rest. He didnt appreciatte me at all. If he did, he would have asked to be friends wimme. He thinks he knows the definition of Love. He have no idea that he doesnt. Dear friends, ive been in a relationship with Yan right after my ex is gone. But in the end, im not ready.
But that was few months back (:
Now? Hahaha ! You'll find out k. =D

2009-12-07T03:53:00.000-08:00

post deleted. heh.

2009-12-01T05:44:00.000-08:00

Feels like updating. And here i am !
Wow am getting more frequent. Hahahahaha.

Anyways sch is fucking boring. My 6 days of attendance wasnt counted. Sibeh !
Kicked out from class. Must bersabar lor.
More boring that my dear friend is not around to shine. :(
Whatsmore he's working. Shoosh. Nevermind.

And ive lost interest on Naruto these days. Some ppl i intro naruto to, will brag and copycating. The Sharingan =) . Hah. Never watched it online for like so so long. Maybe one day k, soon.

So thats about it. Lol. K-nite!

2009-11-29T18:28:00.000-08:00

This is gonna be a semi-lengthy post.
on my impartial weekend updates.

Rushie came to sleepover on Saturday. Before fetching her, met up with my kaki gerek buddy, Kiddo Aceline ! And the coolest shit thing is he's staying near me. Lol. So easy to meet. Hahaha.

Fetched Rushie @ Wdl. Went for a lil' shopping. Bought the necessary items for our date to Sentosa. After that, we went to eat @ Civic Mac. SEAWEED SHAKERRRR ! Woo~

Then ofto lepak at the sort-of colossal ground under the mrt track.

Bought ciggies !

And of course , home sweet home after that.

We surf-ed youtube.com. for MAD TV & WHOSE LINE IS IT ANYWAY. Heheh. Some funny shit !

Then finally, my buddy Farhan smsed. Lol. King of Busy. Haha. Then @ 2am, Mus called. Aww. =] I was so so ultimately+extremely happy that he have this initiative to call me up to say that he will top up Hot128 soon.

Sometimes life's a sunshine being single. Ain't betraying anyone & total freedom on making friends with whoever i like. =]

Last but not least, Sunday morning , went to Sentosa. Supposed to go to Little Guilin @ night , geesh , im sorry Rushie i was too fatigued. We cancelled the plan. We watched New Moon instead. It was awesome. The whole fun ended when i sent her to the bus stop.

Riki & Raul came at night. My two cute nephews. Hehee. I miss them so much.

Ok dah. That's about it. I'll update more soon k. Byebye !

2009-11-26T03:57:00.000-08:00

Woohoo ! finally. PAYDAY!!!! =D Hahahaha. Happy nya aku ! Weeeee.

*jumping up down sideways*

I Bought the tops ive been eyeing on with my Sharingan for quite awhile. And belt too. The rest of the cash is reserved for bills & sentosa this weekend. Well done Iza for not splurging on unnecessary stuffs.

AND Ive been waiting for 1 1/2 day for this Farhan guy, a friend of mine to msg. And he finally did just now when im busy assembling my cascade. Like finally eh ! shoosh !
Speaking of cascades. Ive 2 more to go ! LOL. SLOW.

And another finally goes to Mus ! Anyway, i miss u friend. =]

Yesterday night i went to Little Guilin with Jason aka 'sister'. It's not pleasing down there of course. Creepy cum spooky ! But we maintained our body gestures bla bla bla. We took videos bla bla bla. And i dont know wtr its the wind or what. I heard a woman whispering when i were smoking by the lake. Anyways all jotted down on notepad. Hopefully we get to complete our project on time.

Bye bye !!

2009-11-25T00:04:00.000-08:00

things are sailing smooth this week. im ultimately glad =]

i can't help smiling so wide back to you this morning. Didnt expect you would actually approached me. alas ! expect the unexpected.
and as usual, smoked together. wee.
but this kinda of moment wont last. as today is his last paper. boring siak.
im gonna miss u so much friend. i love u, i love u, i love u, i love u friend. ;] shoosh.
pls top up your damn prepaid k. im waiting. cute guy laaa !

2009-11-20T22:22:00.000-08:00

Feeling sicky the whole week. Didnt tag along with my PM group members to Old changi Hospital & Sungei Api Api. But atleast, I contributed by thorough research & printed necessary informations. Hehee. I aint scardy cat ok. Im just fatigued & sicky. See, its bold and highlighted.

Besides that, im feeling scared+dissapointed+lost = scadisslo?
Well life is like a roller coaster. U hafta accept that. Things get better and even better at first as it goes up. Once u reach the top, be prepared to face the worst. And it will happen so fast u least expected. Im proud that im facing it instead of running away from it.

friend :[ .. ure hiding my smile. i need my smile back.

2009-11-19T04:36:00.000-08:00

im not pleased with my situation now. After that night u msged me something that ure unhappy of, im afraid of falling apart from u. even that we're ok now, i hope that incident is not retrievable. and things arent the same as before. A lil diff. Pls, i don't wish to loose u my friend. :(
i dont wish to stop going sch with u every day either.

2009-11-15T07:11:00.000-08:00

(IN WHITE)HASBULLAH. DIDNT EXPECT THAT YOU WILL LEAVE THIS WORLD TODAY. ITS SHOCKING ME. MOREOVER YOU JUST COMPLETED YOUR O LEVELS. I GUESS I WONT HEAR YOU SING @ WDL AS USUAL ANYMORE HUH. MAY YOU REST IN PEACE. amirul, boboi will miss you.

2009-11-14T20:03:00.000-08:00

Went to catch the movie Paranormal Activity with my schoolmate , Mus. I bet some of you know who he is ;] . Thx 4 treating me Mus. Hrrm, feeling goosebumps yesterday when i got home. I even msged few of my friends telling how SCARDY CAT i am. Hahahs! Penakut arh. The movie somehow reminded me of Quarentine. Coz its viewed through a video cam captured by the main character itself. Somesort similar. But this is a true story. At first, it seemed boring. But just so you wait till the middle part. Fucking scary.

Too bad 2012 is fully booked. But atleast Paranormal activity enlightens me. In a way.

2009-11-12T21:58:00.000-08:00

Hrmm. I have a confession to make. I dont have to wait till friendship day to do this right. I just wanna let this off my chest on how much i appreciatte these ppl. Some ppl are meant to stay, some ppl are meant to go. For example, your family are those some ppl that are gonna stay. And those who go, they drop by your doorstep for a reason and off they go. And those who are gone , they come back to your life , because why ? BECAUSE THEY ARE MEANT TO STAY.

JASON. HE'S MY SISTER. He's staying near me & so we went to school everyday together. He's My love doctor. My smoking partner. Same fav ciggarette brand, next mlsz!

ATIBA , TAM, MIMI. My closest classmate. Almost every problem he has , im someone he will confide to share. He understands me, i understands him.

NANA BFF. workmate,schoolmate,babygirl. love her loads.

IMRAN. Special friend. Narutofreak too. Graduated. Used to contact few years back. And its fated that we contact once again when he asked for my number @ Tamp. Now, its time for him to go again. With his own poly life. Im prepared. Atleast, he dropped by & taught me how to rejuvenate life problems. Thanks for hearing me cry, hearing about my health problems.

my exbf yan hope too. happy that we remained friends. but i know it will never last.

Im a new person now =] heheh. pst. sorry if i didnt include some of you guys!

2009-11-03T03:05:00.000-08:00

Hmm . Many things kinda happened recently . Its an obligation i need to take care of my poor health condition now . CA will dismiss me from school if i carry on absent-ing due to my medical problems . u know , Incomplete modules . Unfair huh . I dont know the meaning of crying anymore . I just stay fucking silent nowadays . Sometimes i wonder why im carrying more problems than the others . N they didnt seemed to understand my kinda of , life . U cant expect me to have a life like yours . Im ALONE , yes . Persevering problems on my own feet . Be it from paying my own bills to personal stuff like stupid love . People hurt me , abandoned me . But im still fly & stay fucking silent . A lil of open & close of eyes , im turning 20 . N i know . life , is about dealing with problems , not running away from it . Its like death . U just have to face that u have to die one day .

2009-10-28T04:33:00.000-07:00

Cafe2 was so packed yesterday. I was standing around looking out for Nana *& Hawa & suddenly this short convo by a group of guys made me turn !

" Kau jangan langgar aku eh. Nanti aku pakai Sharingan aku baru tahu. "

LOL.
Amazing how Naruto.S. affected alot of ppl including me. Hahaha. -.-"

2009-10-24T07:17:00.000-07:00

These are the semi-necessary stuffs I bought. Its maddening me on what to buy at first though.
And it does not mean iam abandoning my old stuffs k ! I still use em. Till it
can't be used? Yeah.
Got my hair done. And my piercing still hurts.
And I bet my two "brothers" must be happy i treated them to Pizzahut. :)
Since i dont know who to spend it on EXACTLY.

Anyway , I need plenty of rest. Tmrw night im working from 7pm-11pm. Mentang2 kerja 711. Haha. Well , In order to detour myself from rotting @ home, Esai ah !

& Oh , Suddenly i remembered that in few more days , it will be a year since. And i bet too that this someone don't even remember or cares. What to do. Nobody knows how i FEEL. :(Well i don't need anyone's pity , i just want to complete my assignments now.

Goodnight EARTH.

2009-10-20T05:09:00.000-07:00

Today is all about the eminence of Naruto Spdn. :)

Its touching to know that Kakashi's sharingan actually belong to his dead bestie !

His bestie belo giler oi. Reminds me of Naruto. Only Naruto's not wearing goggles !

Kakashi became so heartless.

And when he cried , its the sharingan eye that got wet with tears. Bloody touching

eh.

There goes about the Hotstuff Kakashi.

Anyway . . Truckloads of news i have recently. But its kinda personal !

I even dreamt of something for 5 times already. Cant tell what is it. Can be someone or an animal. Lets remain discreet. :) But sometimes . . . . . i wonder why.

2009-10-18T05:49:00.000-07:00

When hard earned money is on hand , i call a day for shopping !

Guess what i purchased. Just so you see in school kay. =D

(I Still.)

2009-10-16T08:02:00.000-07:00

You know , we will bound to meet new ppl out there . Ppl who is meant to be our shoulders , ppl who is meant to be the one to pour our love to , and ppl who is meant to taught us a lesson.

Ppl who is meant to taught us a lesson acts as karma. Which God makes we dont realise. If we realise , we will never get hurt , and so we will never learn. What goes ard comes ard. You hurt someone , these one person destined from God will acts as karma and hurt you back. Life is a never ending education. Everytime , theres many lesson to be learnt.

well , ive learnt my lesson.

2009-10-13T05:01:00.000-07:00

i hope they will be famous one fine day. :) . i love this heart-sinking song. sit back and enjoy.

based on this video , its about the lady dumped the guy cos he turned gay. kinda unique though.

Anyway , today's the 2nd day of new semester. Never did i thought Pneumatic & Hydraulics can be so much fun ! Moreover when it comes to the moment when the air supply , diffuser did its magic ! woohoo gerek KEPE ! Hehehe. Bo layan kawan ! Full concentration on the assembly itself =D

& Thank you so much to those who have been there for me. Friends is all i have besides my

family. They're muscles to my body :)

Last but not least , here's the link to my shared blog with Rushie. Two different world.

But opposite do attracts rite ! Heh. Atleast we have two things in common.

Same fashion sense & NARUTOOOOOO SHIPPUDEN ! Hahaha. Sasuke sasuke sasuke.

www.rushieiza.blogspot.com

2009-10-11T11:16:00.000-07:00

THOSE dream , it pops now and then. Not consecutively, but in at random days.
Haiz.

2009-10-04T07:17:00.000-07:00

Im deeply in love with one song recently.

It's lagu kita by aizat :)

so here it is. lets appreciatte malay for once.

even how much i hated to listen to love songs recently, i fell for this. believe it.
it makes me sad somehow. erm.

anyway i have another song to recommend too.

damn!, shes a sexy bitch!... =D

2009-09-30T01:09:00.000-07:00

I wanna say thanks to those who visited me @ SGH yesterday. Insyallah, i will be fine :)

Im just feeling weak from the hyperdermic syringe.

I dont wanna hear what the doctor hafta say bout my chest pain.

Its been going on for months. Now im high on drugs. Gonna have flu any moment.

Anw, Tmrw morning shift.

Back to work. Fyi, im working @ 7eleven. Back to mr zaki. ;)

Before that i wanna check on my GPA result !

Yessa tak sabar oi ! Ha-ha-haaaaaaahk.

Now its all about studies. I wanna conform and commit.

Biar mind pain, jgn heart pain. hahaha.

I wanna take

my rest and be away from net for the moment. Take care.

2009-09-26T09:35:00.000-07:00

Ive made a shared blog with my les partner Rushie. (: Ive yet to publish it. Im gonna reveal it by

next week.

And i miss sch. Speaking of sch, GPA LAH FUCK! 1st october. I bet my Gpa drop due to

holy shit weak attendance.

Skip so much for only i-know-you-dont-know reason. Even that i have full marks for

my excellency in practical. It wont help. I miss lepak at Unisex toilet. Only engineers shares this

unisex moments. Haha.

And finally i miss going to school with hasbi and jason everyday ! 12 october pls come fast.

I realised how much i change recently. You guys are so gonna see the OLD a year ago Rose

Idariza back !

Ive make over Woohoo !

~What goes ard, comes ard. God is fair. (: Believe it. U will slowly see behind those "colourful" curtains.

2009-09-26T00:32:00.000-07:00

ANY ITECE JAN INTAKE MECHANICAL GUYS WILLING TO DONATE ME YOUR LAST

SEMESTERS BOOKLET? I NEED IT FOR NEXT SEMESTER. SAVE CASH =]

AND IVE CHANGED MY NUMBER BTW.

IVE LOST ALL OF YOUR CONTACTS.

I NEED HASBI'S, JASON'S CONTACT ESPECIALLY.

COS WE'RE GONNA GO SCH, GO HOME TOGETHER EVERYDAY.

PLS DO ASK FOR IT. THANKS.

2009-09-25T09:18:00.000-07:00

Personal or not, i wanna let this off my chest.

Just 5 mins ago. My mum, my bro asked me about Nashrun.

My heart crashed as i heard his name. My mind started to reminisce of him.

It aint easy. I wish so hard that it was just a dream.

I was so happy before, but now. its all about pretence.

I admit he's the first guy that changed me. And he's the first guy ive been so loyal with.

Sometimes, i dont understand why i could play behind back with my all other exes,

but not him.

Even if i hang out with guys now, through their eyes, i only see him. Why?

And everytime i looked back at the things he gave me,

i wondered if he still remembers me.

Its all because of my dumb sickness,

i couldnt fulfill such a promise that meant so much to him.

And because of my exams coma, i threw tantrums at him.

now, im left with no way to make it up to him.

Im crawling so hard, but i just cant.

:(

2009-09-25T07:48:00.000-07:00

Last monday, my mum's siblings, my cousins, raya-ed at my house. But this is not all. Sadly, i didnt visit my dad's side this year. So let the pictures do the talking.

Males.

Females. (: My mum is in white tudung.

Mere pakistani hindustani grandma. Haha.

My mini cousins. And riki safrian nephew in orange.

Australian cousin Justin Eden, Bro in law, Raul Ilhan nephew.

My indian muslim pak long. My dad and me. I know we dont look alike. Haha!

How bout me and my sis ? Hmm. :)

There'll be more pictures coming up. I'll update more soon k!

2009-09-24T10:57:00.000-07:00

Im having a huge problem now !

God, pls save me.

Im so confused. And it aint easy.

What will i do when im confused ?

SLEEP! OKAY, AKU NAK TIDUR.

2009-09-23T09:43:00.000-07:00

Girl who clubs heavily, junks heavily, talks "fanatic" as if theyre fucken big and

stronger than God, shouts to ATTENTION SEEK, vents unpleasant "minahrep"

vulgarities.

= bloody disgusting.

They have themselves to blame when they got a lousy bf.

And to why many ppl

hate them. Just look at them. And just

look at an innocent pleasant girl. Which one is superior?

I suppose great minds unscramble the answer. Take the SYURGA CINTA movie as

an example.

And i just dont get this. Some of them moreover are proud to have a jailbird bf !

They boast a bf who is a trash to society. Perangai kalau sopan dengan rajin kerja

takpe

jugak. In the end you girls gonna suffer.

Common. This is SG. Bukan AMERICA. Lagi pure

Gangstas kat sana. No use fighting anyway.

Waste your time, waste your energy.

A huge wastage ok.

Think like an ADULT.

2009-09-20T08:02:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya Guys & Ladies.

Todays the first day. So enjoy while you can.

Who knows we might not celebrate it next year rite ! And i just hope those friends of

mine would forgive me. I know i forget friends easily. BUT Its purely

unintentional. Sighs. Now, Its time for me to appreciatte those around me. Its an

obligation. And ask myself do they deserve to be thrown aside? Moreover if theyve

done alot for me. Make a difference to me. Even though theyve hurt me. Its injustice.

We're humans afterall la huh. Nobody is so good. I know how it feels. I'll try to keep

in touch ok. =]

2009-09-16T02:18:00.000-07:00

Çan't believe what i heard just now.

Mum will pay for my car enrollment. Woohoo!

Bloody good huh ! Yeah. Finally.

This time i'll say reality is better than dream. Yeah.

But still a fucked up life , fucked up me.

2009-09-10T02:51:00.000-07:00

ME and MESSY hair as usual. =]

& Its my first time wearing shades man ! Hahahaha !

I find it awkward though. Oh well. Haha.

2009-09-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

Its been long since I dress up myself.

Not to impress anyone,

but I just wanna appreciatte my looks. So here we go !

2009-09-08T11:12:00.000-07:00

Now, I'll just swallow my heart & watch him go.

Maybe, im the only one who remembers what we've been through.

Maybe, im the only one who doesnt wants to waste it.

Rose idariza doesnt feels right eversince you walkout that door.

And my heart, it keeps beating your name. What am i suppose to do.

I couldnt force my heart not to beat.

I didnt mean to break promises. But its broken for a good reason.

I wish you realised youre just going the wrong way. Im right here. Why are you

looking away?

2009-09-06T08:20:00.000-07:00

Do you know how bad i wanna tell you that i miss you.
After that night, i died inside. Its like a brick wall has fallen on top of me.

2009-09-06T01:58:00.000-07:00

i need a new hp. a new line/prepaid card.
please.
hp rosak !!!!!!

2009-08-31T08:03:00.000-07:00

Today, I watched Final Destination with Rushielove @ Downtown East. Its the shit guys ! But better choose a disiplined movie partner. Unlike Nurse Rushie. Haha. Just kidding babe. I love ya ! Can't wait to see you & urderaged Elfee again.

And thanks to my comrade who fetched me @ BB last sunday. The way you rode your bike is just fucking AWESOME (:

2009-08-29T08:17:00.000-07:00

ROSE FT RUSHIE.

Today I had a super-ly great time with ya ! Dined in at Ph. Shopping. Gossiping. Haha. Girls are girls ! And its great seeing Elfee too. (:

2009-08-26T06:40:00.000-07:00

[ 3 worst picture ever. ]

Im Sorry For Being The Fire That Sets Your Life Ablaze.

I Open My Eyes Everyday With The Same Guilt Feeling.
Same Shit Feeling, Different Days.

I Swear You My Life I Wont Be That Fire Anymore.

[neverever]

2009-08-23T03:30:00.000-07:00

MY HEART'S SINKING.
I HAVE ONE WEEK LEFT TO COMPLETE MY STACK OF ASSIGNMENTS. THATS ONE HELLA OF A TINY AMOUNT OF TIME. ITS ALMOST UNFLAPPABLE.
MOREOVER WITH CLASSMATES WHO WILL VILIFY ME WHENEVER IM DOING MY WORK. MAYBE FASTING MONTH MIGHT SCOTCH THEM A LITTLE.
Anyway i miss my two nephews very much. Hope to see you both soon Riki Safrian & Raul Ilhan; =)

2009-08-23T02:17:00.000-07:00

I was high N crazy that night. i interviewed two of my comrades down there. amirul & norazman (fyi not azman bestie). dont mind my BERBUAL BERSEPAHS. Haha. I was not ready. And its purely out of pleasantry. the actual video is lengthy- but im lazy to upload the full video. so below is just the 3 mins preview =)

2009-08-20T23:32:00.000-07:00

EXAMS IN TWO WEEKS TIME. YET SOME PPL OUT
THERE IS GIVING ME A HARD TIME. WELL THEY GOTTA SOMEHOW THINK OF OTHER
PPL FEELINGS TOO INSTEAD OF THEIR OWN. GREAT WORLD
HUH.

2009-08-14T06:29:00.000-07:00

DID THIS. I GUESS BLOGGER IS THE ONLY PLACE WHERE I COULD EXPRESS MY INNER SELF. ITS A SCRAPBOOK. U CAN FREELY TURN THE PAGES. KAYY ENOUGH.

2009-08-12T03:40:00.000-07:00

SUAR LARH. NOT AGAIN. PLS DONT IRRITATE EITHER ME OR MY PARENTS WITH YOUR CALLS CA. PASAL WORKPIECE PUN NAK COMPLAIN KAT PARENTS AKU. WTFISH. WHAT CAN THEY DO ? IT WILL ONLY CAUSE RESENTMENT BTWN ME & MY PARENTS. MUM WILL THINK I COULDNT BE BOTHERED WITH MY WORK. WHEN IM ACTUALLY STRUGGLING ON MY OWN FEET COMPLETING IT. IM 19 ALREADY. SO DON'T TREAT ME LIKE A KID. AND THIS IS NOT SEC SCH.

IM SO STRESS NOW!
WHATS MORE. AZMAN. I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH HIM. I SHARED MY PROBLEMS AND ALL HE SAID WAS ' OK. HAHA '
WALAUWEH ! MACAM NAK SURUH GAJAH SEPAK DIA SEH. HE THINKS THAT CAN CHEER ME UP.
HELLO. WAKE UP LAH WAI. GIVING ME AN ADVICE WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. NOT LAUGHING. ROFL. FUNNY PPL LARH.

AND IF U HAVE PROBLEMS , U FACE IT, SOLVE IT. NOT BY SILENT TREATMENT. ITS LIKE PPL COMMITING SUICIDE. THEY ENDED UP LIKE THAT CAUSE THEY RUN AWAY FROM PROBLEMS & CAN NO LONGER RUN ANYMORE.

NO MATTER HOW BAD MY DAY TODAY IS , IM COOL. SMILE (:

2009-08-10T00:41:00.000-07:00

I GOT MY SAFETY BOOTS NOW. THANKS TO AKIM AND HASBI. I DONT HAVE TO PURCHASE ONE. HUHU. IM DONE WITH GASKET, STEEL PIPE TEST AND DISMANTLE OF SCREWS ETC. I STILL HAVE 4 MORE WORKPIECE LEFT BEHIND. IM SO FEISTY TO WORK ON IT TMRW NOON.

I NEED TO SAVE MONEY. MUST BUY THAT LONG SLEEVE TOP. MUM SOMEHOW AGREED TO MY IDEA ABOUT THE STILL-GIVE-MONEY-DURING-FASTING-MONTH. ONLY THAT SHE GIVES ME 3 BUCKS INSTEAD OF 6 BUCKS. SO I CAN ACTUALLY SAVE IT AND SPEND ON CONTACT LENSES.